Monday, December 28, 2009

Finally, my Ondoy Story

Three months after the big flood, life still has not returned to normal at home.  From the outside, things look pretty much the same as before but the inside is another story.  The house is still in a pretty bad shape.  It's liveable but it's in dire need of a paint job and some repairs too.  A lot of things had to be thrown away and I find myself longing for those that I took for granted before (perhaps even scoffed at).  Talk about starting from scratch.

Let's start on that fateful day in September.  It was a Saturday so the whole family slept in.  At 8 in the morning, my daughter had already gotten up but didn't want to be active yet so she put on a DVD and started watching.  To be more comfy, she laid out the sofa bed on the floor.  My husband and I were still very much sound asleep.  I had spent the day before taking a short "break" from school work thinking I had the rest of the 3-day weekend to study and do my notes.  I stayed up the night before until late basking in the brief respite and loving the idea that I could choose to sleep late and wake up late for once.

All of a sudden, my 10-year old burst into the room screaming, "Mama!  Mama!  It's flooding!"  In a stupor, the message did not register right away.  What did she mean by flooding?  It barely rained the night before.  I woke up in the wee hours and yes, it was raining but only then.  Flooding in the house?!?  Why is she in a panic?!  Oh geez!  It's flooding in the house!!!

With me up, she proceeded to her Tatay and then Ate Jenny.  All four of us promptly started gathering things from the floor up.  We raised things, brought them upstairs, put them on top of shelvings and cabinets.  No one thought of eating.  No one thought of changing clothes. 

The water was rising fast.  When the water was about the reach the lowest electrical outlets, I decided to turn off the main switch.  When it got a little higher, I thought "Oh crap, the car!  Geez!  It's too late to move it now!"  So I just got a plastic bag and tried to plug the exhaust pipe as securely as I could while I shivered in the cold.

We all thought, the last time the waters went really high, the elevated bedrooms were not spared but most of our things there were.  So, as the waters went even higher as the morning wore on, we just kept on piling our things higher and higher.  My husband recalls have to place the important gadgets onto even higher places at least three times.

The pets were too scared to move and had to be carried up to the rooms.  The hamsters, my daughter's beloved pets, had to be brought up as well in their respective terrariums.

By the early afternoon, the water finally reached the elevated bedrooms.  It was then that I decided that we had to find a way out.  I had shed off the boots that had proven useless and heavy when the water got too high.  Still, I went out of the house with the water up to my stomach and looked for a floatation device that could carry my daughter and some of our things.  Inside the house, my husband and the girls were packing our things to bring with us.  I had heard him tell the girls to pack bags before that and had already packed my scrubs, some underwear, the canned goods and some fruits.  No, I did not forget the can openner.  And, no, I did not pack any slippers nor shoes.  I had packed my netbook but decided to put it in what i thought would be a high enough place for it to be safe, right beside the hamsters.

I found an old wooden door.  That would do.  I also found an old cooler that could carry bags.  At that point, our neighbor, Dina, whose family had shared their home with us in the big flood of 1986 called out to us to move over to their house.  They were also calling in the other families in bungalows -- the Quitaligs right across from us and the old Palomares couple.  We gratefully accepted the invitation.  Jenny and I held on to the wooden door as my daughter sat on it while she held on to the dogs.  Joel held on to the cooler with our bags.  I could barely feel the street as we crossed over to Dina's house.  I hadn't realized it but I wasn't wearing anything on my feet.  As luck would have it, a group of four young men came by and helped us cross.  They had been going around looking for people who needed help.  They cracked jokes and made us laugh as we practically swam.

Joel went back and secured the house.  Even then, he wanted to ensure against looters who might take advantage of the calamity.  As we settled in Dina's house, he was out there helping people trying to swim to safety.  He told the story of the small family who refused to let go of their already submerged motorbike over and over because he was able to persuade them to tie it to our tree so that they could swim freely to higher ground.

The power was down by this time and we were all furiously sending messages asking for help from people we had on our cellphones.  People soon complained of running out of load or running out of battery charge.  I had resorted to using only one phone to conserve on battery life.  A text message I had sent to our class president must have sounded too hard to believe because one of our classmates responded for him and asked me if I was kidding about needing a boat.  Turns out, the one who replied lived near our area and was soon on his way home from school after receiving my message.  No one else answered.  We guessed that the cellphone companies were having problems with the traffic of messages already.  We also couldn't make calls anymore-- partly because we couldn't get though and partly because we needed to conserve power.

As the afternoon wore on, we converged at the patio outside one of the rooms.  It faced the street.  We could see our respective houses go under slowly.  We also saw the water turn from just dirty to brown with mud in mid-afternoon.  At first, we were making jokes and reminisced about the flood of '86, but as the water became higher and higher, we grew more and more quiet.  As we realized that all the work of raising stuff that morning had been for naught and that all our valuables were sinking in front of our eyes, the mood became more pensive.  By late afternoon, the mood went into panic mode again.  The water was still rising and the second floor of Dina's house was about to get flooded.

After sharing an early dinner, Dina's nephews and sons started to open ways to go on top of roofs so we could hike over to another neighbor's house -- the Losa Tower -- the highest house in the street with three floors. In the dark, we walked on the slippery GI sheets and got to there.  We were all wet.  Bong, the older of the Losa boys, a childhood friend, welcomed all of us -- more than 30 people.  The rained poured on until late that evening.  We shared stories, had private prayers said and got to know our neighbors little better.

It's funny, looking back now, that it had to take a calamity for us neighbors to get in touch with each other again. 

Based on our experience from 1986, if the rain stopped that night, the water would soon receded and we could probably go back home the next day.  So, when the rains did stop at around 10 in the evening of the 26th, we were hopeful.  Dina and her boys were able to go back to their second floor early the next morning.  To our dismay, the waters stayed high the whole day of Sunday, September 27th.

In the morning of the 27th, however, we had the most welcome surprise-- my brother, along with his brother in law and a son of Mr. Palomares arrived bearing relief goods -- rice, canned goods, mineral water and a fully-charged cellphone. 

Though his house was just as submerged as ours, the floods caught my brother with his son and his brother-in-law's family in Ateneo for the grade school family day, while the women of their respective families were in St. Paul Pasig for their family day also.  They spent the whole of Saturday in the campus being cared for by the staff.  They had tried to reach us but were hampered by the floods and the heavy traffic.  They had access to power, food and communication lines but were frustrated because those of us left behind didn't have power nor communication lines and the cellphones were already down to the last bits of power.

My brother's in-laws lived in the house directly behind the Losa's and we all had a reunion when they arrived.  Luckily, they too had a second floor that was spared from the floods.

It was quite a sight seeing them arrive.  The breeze was cold as we stood on the roof watching the damage being done to our homes.  The water current was visible from where we were.  It was going East.  Floating debris of house parts and tree branches trudged slowly on the murky from Main Street to Marietta Street.  All the bungalows in our street only had rooftops visible.  And the water level was not going down, at least not fast enough for us.

Through the day, the people in the Losa Tower took care of each other.  Water was conserved and food was rationed.  No one had any appetite anyway.  

The kids seemed to be doing better compared to the adults.  MY own daughter asked several times to swim in the flood because "there was finally enough water to swim in."  She communicated with neighborhood friends by shouting across the flood while standing on the roof.  I dreaded having to tell her about her pet hamsters which be drowned by this time because their terrariums had screen tops that wouldn't let them out, worse, one had just given birth two days before the flood came.

My brother had carried of my cellphone and left his so that he could charge mine and my husband's, along with a couple of others.  Family from the states finally were able to communicate with us but only for a few precious minutes.  We told we were fine and that nothing could be saved from the house, but they were happy to know we were ok.  As mama said, those were just things anyway.

Choppers came by.  The first few ones were obviously just trying to assess the situation.  The later ones dropped relief goods, but not near us.  We frantically waved at them.  We tried to get their attention but none gave us any.

While the kids played, the adults sometimes joined them or went about telling stories about the 1986 flood, comparing devastations.  I don't remember much of the stories anymore.  All I knew was that we were all praying for the flood to subside already.  Towards sunset, it had gone down by a few feet and we prayed some more that it wouldn't rain anymore.  Thankfully, there were no more rains that night.

As Monday morning came on the 28th of September, the flood waters had gone down even more.  Most of the refugees at the Losa Tower decided to thank our gracious hosts and headed to their respective homes.  For us, we couldn't go home yet.  Standing on the roof of the Losa residence, we could see that the house was still pretty much submerged.  The Palomareses and Quitaligs had other houses nearby that they could stay in.  Our possible refuge was my brother's home but it too was submerged.  Through the kindness of their hearts, the Losas let us stay with them longer than the rest.

As the floods went lower that Monday morning, my brother arrived in his SUV with more relief goods.  I asked my brother to take my daughter with him, knowing that she would be in good hands and happy to see her cousins.  We bade her a tearful goodbye not knowing when we can tell my brother it was safe and ok for her to come home.  After they left, we were finally able to cross the street to go visit the house.

The house was a mess.  It looked like a tornado hit the house inside and then a huge mud bomb exploded.  Everything was all over the place and browned.  We had problems opening the doors which jammed -- the wood had expanded after getting submerged, and things behind it were blocking the way.  It was a sorry sight.  Looking back, it would have been enough to make me cry but crying was not an option -- there was much work to be done.

It took more than a week for us to be able to clean enough space in the house for us to have some place to sleep in.  People helped, thankfully.  Relief goods poured in from friends and classmates (who had an Ondoy relief drive for us flood victims -- I have a feeling I was their primary recipient).

Actual clean up for a more liveable house went on for more than a month.  Minor cleaning is still on-going.  Repairs went on for about two months and they are still unfinished.

And this blog is surprisingly difficult to make.  This is not a complete account, of course, but it gives the essentials of what happened.  I guess wanting to move on makes me want to go forward and not look back.  There was nothing I personally could have done to prevent what happened, so we live on...

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Simple Joys

Isn't it great that sometimes, happiness comes in the simplest package?  Taking a stroll at the Riverbanks Park in Marikina, this seemed all too clear. 

The place had been devastated by Ondoy.  In fact, a lot of the stores are still closed, though most have opened and resumed business already.  The barges were gone, and so with the bridge that connected the park to the other bank of the Marikina River where there used to be a slew of grilled specialty restaurants (our favorite eating place).  The stores that were open had sales, and not a few items were water-damaged.

Still, there were many people in the place.  Last minute Christmas shoppers were taking advantage of the sales.  Balikbayans were there with relatives.  Kids were everywhere.  Outside the mall, there was the Tiangge with the weekend shows.  There were even more people there than inside the mall.

I had shared my husband's fear that people would somehow forget the semblance of Christmas after the floods.  There was general lack of lights near our house -- so much less than the years that passed.  Carolers did not come knocking at our door until the 12th of December and there were only so few of them -- not that we're complaining about it.  Christmas shopping was not was frantic compared to the past years.  Yes, the traffic was still bad and the taxi drivers were still choosing their passengers, but both were decidedly to a lesser degree this year.

At the Riverbanks, I saw a glimmer of hope.  Happy shoppers were delighting at the bargains.  Kids were crying in frustration after having to walk around so much... until the light show began in the park.  Every hour, for about 15 minutes, Christmas music would fill the air and the lights on the trees, lanterns and displays would flicker to the beat.  This was interspersed with the LED-lit toys kids were throwing in the air bought from vendors nearby.  Groups were seated on the lawn sharing dinner, stories and we heard a lot of laughing.

Laughter... that I guess was the antidote to my pessimism.  Yes, the events of recent months have dampened the season quite a bit, but they did not dampen the spirit.  My own daughter had been showing me this with her innocent excitement at the season.  My own chagrin at the thought of spending yet again may have blinded me... until I saw those people at the park.

There is hope yet.  And I am thankful.

Happy holidays, everyone!

=)K

Simple Joys

Isn't it great that sometimes, happiness comes in the simplest package? Taking a stroll at the Riverbanks Park in Marikina, this seemed all too clear.

The place had been devastated by Ondoy. In fact, a lot of the stores are still closed, though most have opened and resumed business already. The barges were gone, and so with the bridge that connected the park to the other bank of the Marikina River where there used to be a slew of grilled specialty restaurants (our favorite eating place). The stores that were open had sales, and not a few items were water-damaged.

Still, there were many people in the place. Last minute Christmas shoppers were taking advantage of the sales. Balikbayans were there with relatives. Kids were everywhere. Outside the mall, there was the Tiangge with the weekend shows. There were even more people there than inside the mall.

I had shared my husband's fear that people would somehow forget the semblance of Christmas after the floods. There was general lack of lights near our house -- so much less than the years that passed. Carolers did not come knocking at our door until the 12th of December and there were only so few of them -- not that we're complaining about it. Christmas shopping was not was frantic compared to the past years. Yes, the traffic was still bad and the taxi drivers were still choosing their passengers, but both were decidedly to a lesser degree this year.

At the Riverbanks, I saw a glimmer of hope. Happy shoppers were delighting at the bargains. Kids were crying in frustration after having to walk around so much... until the light show began in the park. Every hour, for about 15 minutes, Christmas music would fill the air and the lights on the trees, lanterns and displays would flicker to the beat. This was interspersed with the LED-lit toys kids were throwing in the air bought from vendors nearby. Groups were seated on the lawn sharing dinner, stories and we heard a lot of laughing.

Laughter... that I guess was the antidote to my pessimism. Yes, the events of recent months have dampened the season quite a bit, but they did not dampen the spirit. My own daughter had been showing me this with her innocent excitement at the season. My own chagrin at the thought of spending yet again may have blinded me... until I saw those people at the park.

There is hope yet. And I am thankful.

Happy holidays, everyone!

=)K

Monday, November 30, 2009

A Christmas Carol

Rating:★★★
Category:Movies
Genre: Kids & Family
Kudos to Robert Zemeckis for being more loyal to the classic schort story by Charles Dickens... except for the additions.

First off, the good stuff:

The animation and effects were amazing. The characters were well animated and the voice acting was superb, especially Gary Oldman, Cary Elwes and, of course, Jim Carrey. The dialogue was witty, but that's partly due to the original story anyway.

Now, for the stuff I didn't quite like:

What on earth was that chase scene all about?! It wasted a good 5-10 minutes of the movie! And for what? Nothing!!!

I sorely missed the empathy I should have felt for Tiny Tim. He's the heart-tug of the entire piece and that was not dwelled on. Instead, you had to suffer through a very lengthy yet unimportant chase scene wherein Scrooge becomes a gnome-sized.

I wanted to cry, like I did when I first read the story. I wanted to feel for the Cratchit family. I wanted to hate Scrooge. I wanted to rejoice in Scrooge's transformation. Instead, I was left wondering what happened.

The story is very good. Dickens knew his stuff. Animation was wonderful. The transitions and effects were well-presented. I just don't get why they had to add elements that were really utterly irrelevant.

My take: wait for the video, if you msut see it. Otherwise, some live-action rendition of the story are still better than this one.

=)K

Saturday, November 21, 2009

OMG!!! Ate Ginnie sa gimmick?!?

Yes, ladies and gentlemen, after oh so many years of being a practical hermit in the house and keeping to my small group of friends, I finally took an invitation to go to a party in a bar. I guess the timing of the event was just perfect. I didn't have classes that day (yesterday, actually) and it was a Friday so no classes also. So, I thought, hey, why not chill for once?

The event was Fizzer Bites Manila. It's actually a launch party of Fizzer.ph, which aims to create a real Social Networking site.

I thought: wait "real social networking"? I mean, don't we already do that on FB, Multiply, Twitter, etc.? Turns out that this site will actually make things happen based on the site activities -- like this launch party was to bring together people who want to get to know each other from the site. Cool concept, huh?

PLUS, the theme of the party was "Fanglicious" to celebrate the opening of New Moon in theaters the same day. I haven't watched it yet. I'm feeling rebellious about this. I don't have to spend too much time away from stuff I need to do just be "in" on things. BUT, I do appreciate the book series and I am a fan of the Vampiric genre, so it was right down my alley. Too bad all my make-up were stolen by Ondoy so i couldn't really look the part. I did wear my closed neck blouse and long black skirt and knee-high boots though.

And boy, was I in culture shock!

The bar scene has changed since I last went out to one. Clothes are way more revealing now and the young people who went to this particular party were well-chiselled from head to toe. I mean, the girls were model-like and the boys had real honest-to-goodness abs. Good lord, for a bit there I wanted to turn on the flirt and have that kind of fun. After hyperventilating a bit, I settled down with some fellow geek friends, Niki Yarte, Nina Reyes, Carlo Francisco, Beejay Bautista and Paolo Jalbuena, all from New Worlds Alliance and enjoyed a couple of shots of Jagermeister and a lot of talk about geeky stuff.

You read it right, I actually drank an alcoholic beverage on a night out. People who have been out with me at night to social events like this before would know that I have this very strict rule of not imbibing alcohol for one very good reason -- I drive. What changed? The car is still in the car hospital getting treatment after Ondoy took it for a dive. That bloke, Ondoy, wasn't very good. After stealing my make-up, he took my stuff for a dive, and some croaked while the others needed a lot of medical attention. I hope he never returns! hehehe...

Back to my Gimmick night. While ogling at the beauty of God's creation and appreciating brewed malt for the first time in years, I found I could actually like this again. I mean I can barely dance but I appreciate good rhythm. The people I was with liked my kind of fun. And I could let my hair down a bit -- we did as much with the photo booth.

The photo booth was the highlight of the evening for me. If I had won the 16GB iPod, that would have been the highlight of my evening but I didn't, so the photo booth takes the cake. It was a Poof Photo Booth. They had all sorts of gimmicks for you to play with -- wigs, plastic shades, masks and other props. Each session is worth 4 poses and each shot is taken one after the other with only a 3-2-1 countdown interval. The guys who manage it encourage people to have fun with it, and so we did, especially after the drinks. We got a print of the 4 poses after each session with the first printed larger than the other three. I took home a bunch; same with my friends, especially Niki. Pictures to follow when Poof has uploaded the pics on their website for us to grab.

We ended up going home at past two in the morning -- the wee-est hour I've ever tried commuting home! I've gone home later but I was always driving. When I couldn't bring the car, I would find a friend to bring me home or sleep-over at a friend's house. No dice this time. The hubby had been calling me starting midnight but I couldn't hear the cellphone from the bag, and I was having so much fun I actually lost track of time. So much for wearing a watch!

Carlo was the only one with a car that was going home the same time most of us were so he was the school bus driver of the morning. Yeah, he didn't drink alcohol. Beejay and I got dropped off at Galleria because the direction-impaired Carlo can't be risked to go through the twists and turns of my area. Beejay and i took a cab from there. My hubby waited for me along Ortigas Ave., and he escorted me home with very stern words about him worrying that i hadn't replied to his messages nor answering the phone in the five times he called. I felt like a teen-ager!

So there, I finally let loose... a little bit. You'll see in the pics. Thanks Fizzer!

=)K

OMG!!! Ate Ginnie sa gimmick?!?

Yes, ladies and gentlemen, after oh so many years of being a practical hermit in the house and keeping to my small group of friends, I finally took an invitation to go to a party in a bar. I guess the timing of the event was just perfect. I didn't have classes that day (yesterday, actually) and it was a Friday so no classes also. So, I thought, hey, why not chill for once?

The event was Fizzer Bites Manila. It's actually a launch party of Fizzer.ph, which aims to create a real Social Networking site.

I thought: wait "real social networking"? I mean, don't we already do that on FB, Multiply, Twitter, etc.? Turns out that this site will actually make things happen based on the site activities -- like this launch party was to bring together people who want to get to know each other from the site. Cool concept, huh?

PLUS, the theme of the party was "Fanglicious" to celebrate the opening of New Moon in theaters the same day. I haven't watched it yet. I'm feeling rebellious about this. I don't have to spend too much time away from stuff I need to do just be "in" on things. BUT, I do appreciate the book series and I am a fan of the Vampiric genre, so it was right down my alley. Too bad all my make-up were stolen by Ondoy so i couldn't really look the part. I did wear my closed neck blouse and long black skirt and knee-high boots though.

And boy, was I in culture shock!

The bar scene has changed since I last went out to one. Clothes are way more revealing now and the young people who went to this particular party were well-chiselled from head to toe. I mean, the girls were model-like and the boys had real honest-to-goodness abs. Good lord, for a bit there I wanted to turn on the flirt and have that kind of fun. After hyperventilating a bit, I settled down with some fellow geek friends, Niki Yarte, Nina Reyes, Carlo Francisco, Beejay Bautista and Paolo Jalbuena, all from New Worlds Alliance and enjoyed a couple of shots of Jagermeister and a lot of talk about geeky stuff.

You read it right, I actually drank an alcoholic beverage on a night out. People who have been out with me at night to social events like this before would know that I have this very strict rule of not imbibing alcohol for one very good reason -- I drive. What changed? The car is still in the car hospital getting treatment after Ondoy took it for a dive. That bloke, Ondoy, wasn't very good. After stealing my make-up, he took my stuff for a dive, and some croaked while the others needed a lot of medical attention. I hope he never returns! hehehe...

Back to my Gimmick night. While ogling at the beauty of God's creation and appreciating brewed malt for the first time in years, I found I could actually like this again. I mean I can barely dance but I appreciate good rhythm. The people I was with liked my kind of fun. And I could let my hair down a bit -- we did as much with the photo booth.

The photo booth was the highlight of the evening for me. If I had won the 16GB iPod, that would have been the highlight of my evening but I didn't, so the photo booth takes the cake. It was a Poof Photo Booth. They had all sorts of gimmicks for you to play with -- wigs, plastic shades, masks and other props. Each session is worth 4 poses and each shot is taken one after the other with only a 3-2-1 countdown interval. The guys who manage it encourage people to have fun with it, and so we did, especially after the drinks. We got a print of the 4 poses after each session with the first printed larger than the other three. I took home a bunch; same with my friends, especially Niki. Pictures to follow when Poof has uploaded the pics on their website for us to grab.

We ended up going home at past two in the morning -- the wee-est hour I've ever tried commuting home! I've gone home later but I was always driving. When I couldn't bring the car, I would find a friend to bring me home or sleep-over at a friend's house. No dice this time. The hubby had been calling me starting midnight but I couldn't hear the cellphone from the bag, and I was having so much fun I actually lost track of time. So much for wearing a watch!

Carlo was the only one with a car that was going home the same time most of us were so he was the school bus driver of the morning. Yeah, he didn't drink alcohol. Beejay and I got dropped off at Galleria because the direction-impaired Carlo can't be risked to go through the twists and turns of my area. Beejay and i took a cab from there. My hubby waited for me along Ortigas Ave., and he escorted me home with very stern words about him worrying that i hadn't replied to his messages nor answering the phone in the five times he called. I felt like a teen-ager!

So there, I finally let loose... a little bit. You'll see in the pics. Thanks Fizzer!

=)K

Friday, September 25, 2009

Bautista-De Guzman Nuptials




Bogs and Missa finally tied the knot on Sept. 19th, 2009. Kimi was a junior bridesmaid. And she and Ninang Nina exchanged shoes at the reception. Yes, she is that big now.

This unofficial photographer took these for those who would want to see how it all went.

Congrats to the newly weds and good luck!
=)K

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Hung Up

Almost four decades and still wondering...

why nudity is so bad
that a woman's breast would cause sin
when God made it and it's man who thinks it's evil
that skin made bare could turn men
into monsters and animals
so we clothe in animals we'd slaughtered and be civil

why death is such a bane
that even men of power pay fortunes to avoid it
when everyone dies one way or the other
and everyone born will meet death
and sink into her arms like a long lost lover

why loving could hurt so much
that men and women go crazy
avoiding it, yet yearning for it
that an act of love could be beautiful
yet be shunned as sin by those who see it

so wisdom of age has denied me this
yet this ignorance is so far from bliss...

=)K

Sunday, July 26, 2009

My Little Busnessgirl

So far, my daughter seems to be thriving in her new school.  After being voted as the class muse, she is now being "courted" to join the band.  She is hesitant because she doesn't know how to play any instrument.  I told her she could learn and they would teach her anyway.  I also suggested that she could try being a majorette since she knows some moves from her gymnastics lessons.  She is thinking about it.

Her major concern about joining the band is that she might not have enough time to dedicate for it given her schoolwork.  To be honest, I'm half-happy and half-sad about this reason.  Happy because she seems to be taking responsibility of her schedule and priorities.  Sad because I know she can manage her schedule better if she wanted to.

In any case, she found out this week that she could sell stuff at school.  Inspired by her former yaya, Ate Ester who is a very enterprising mother herself, Kimi volunteered to her teacher that she has those flashlight pens which the teacher expressed desire for.  With that declaration, she also told her classmates that she sells them and promptly got orders from classmates as well as upperclassmen. 

This prompted a trip to Divi for me last Friday.  It caused me to be late for a make-up class in the afternoon (I think it's worth it though).  When my schedule suddenly became clear yesterday, she said she wanted to get more merchandise from Divi so we spent the day working on her business -- getting merchandise from Divi and creating her "books."

We passed by Cubao to do an errand for my parents and dropped by a large second-hand store near the Cubao Post Office.  She found two Barbie-size horses there and promptly bought them with her own money.  In Divi, she made more personal purchases.  I didn't stop her from pampering herself from her earnings.  I say she deserves to enjoy the fruits of her labor.  Besides, she has been saving her baon (I give her P30 per day) since she doesn't have to spend for anything in school.  This little girl has money to spend.

She did say she is saving up for a bike that she'd like to get for her birthday, so she was mindful of her shopping expenses.  Her spending wasn't at all out of control -- she got a grand total of 5 items which cost her P300 in all.

Not bad for a starting entrepreneur...

=)K

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Right before school starts

Kimi starts with a news chool this year.  She isn't very excited about it but she has trusted us to move her studies.  Her acceptance of something this big for her and her unwavering trust at our judgement on her behalf simply boggles me.  It's a amazing to see that when I have found it hard to simply place my trust on anyone.

And she has grown!  Almost five feet now.  I'm expecting her to grow taller than me.  She saw my wedding shoes the other day and she said she would love to have it someday.  I said she might be able to wear it on her gradeschool graduation -- yes, that soon.  And she is starting to have breasts...

Oh dear, she is getting into that scary part for parents!  Right now, she is still innocent and trusting.  On one hand, I am scared about what the world will do to her.  On the other hand, I want her to learn her lessons.  I good bargain is for her to learn her lessons in the not-so-hard way.  Oh, if only it were possible to rig her life to be like that...

In any case, the scary part hasn't really come yet.  Her exposure to the bad elements have been filtered thus far by her parents and school.  I hope the new school will be good to her.  I hope she blossoms in this new environment. 

I hope.  I pray, just as I've always prayed since I found out I was pregnant with her -- Dear God, please don't let me screw up her life.

Oh well... so life goes on.

=)K

Monday, June 08, 2009

Storms Signals

Storm Signal #1:
Don't you just hate it when people don't trust the decisions you've made?  Worse, they think the worst of it and tell you you're harsh and unkind... and it's your own mom.

Storm Signal #2:
Don't you just hate it when other people give away your things?  Imagine this:  my daughter left a bag containing her swimming effects in school last March.  She didn't tell me until April so we sent someone over to get it... several times.  Each time, we get feedback like "there's no one with a key to open the lost and found cabinet" or "the people with keys are too busy to open the firggin cabinet..."  We go there today to get the bag since it's the first day of classes and the nuns have cleared the cabinet and gave the contents to charity... and they never contacted us about it either...  Those Sisters of St. Paul need to learn some manners...

Storm Signal #3:
I have no possible scholarship for my 4th year of studies... It's not for two years, but it makes me wonder about being in the program...  Will I be able to finish?

Storm Signal #4:
only 2 of 9 got their visas in batch 1... so far...

Storm Signal #5:
house help isn't really househelp and will leave on the first day of classes.  oh, and she left the stove turned on with no flame and the gas tank on too the other night...

gasp... breathe... gasp... breathe...  will need emergency equipment soon. 

a deluge, suffice it to say.  i'm letting the tsunami tide me over, debris and all, since there is nothing i can do about it, basically.  thank god for little girls with a ready hug and kiss for one distressed mama.

=)K

Monday, May 18, 2009

An Exercise in Futility

Kelly's head felt like it was about to burst.  Too many things were happening all at the same time.

As she rushed to her interview, the finger she cut earlier while cooking started to bleed again.  In her hurried frenzy to prepare, she had not dressed it properly.

Pull yourself together, stupid!  She told herself.  This interview is important!

She was on her way to a middle-aged early retiree how had too much cash at her disposal.  The woman wanted to write her memoirs and Kelly was going to help her do it.  This first interview was supposed to wow the rich lady into wanting more of her, or so Kelly thought

As she was ushered into the stately home, Kelly had to stop herself from gasping.  This woman had taste and too much money.  If only she were as favored by the fates!  The hallway was dimly lit while both walls on the sides had life-sized paintings of the lady and a man.  On one side, he had an arrogant head and a stern mouth as he stood stiffly in his military uniform.  On the other wall, she was in an elegant gown leaning against the back of her chair as she cradled a little girl. 

She had a daughter?!  Funny, the lady never mentioned a daughter.

Kelly was still thinking about the paintings when she was ushered into the study.  It was also dimly lit.  The lady was sipping tea beside a window.

"Come in, dear.  Sit here by the window with me.  You can use the light from outside .  I don't want the lights on too much."  the lady told her.

Embarrassed, Kelly did her best not to show her injured finger which she hid under a kerchief.  The lady waited for her to bring out her recorder, her notebook and her pen.  Kelly didn't say a word.

"How old are you, dear?"  asked the lady.

"Twenty."

"So young.  So much ahead of you.  I was in over my head at your age.  I thought I could own the world.  I fell in love too... It seems like ages ago now."  She paused and took a sip from her tea.

Kelly thought, this is going to be easy -- I don't have to say a word!

"You know what I miss about your age?"  Kelly simply looked back at the lady.  "That giddy feeling.  That warmth you feel when some manly hand combs back the hair from your face, cradles your head and pulls you in for a long lingering kiss..."

The lady looked away to a far off memory as the sun shone on her face through the curtains.  She closed her eyes as if to savor what she remembered.

"But that's all in the past now," the lady said as she dropped her head and took another sip.

"He turned out to be just another John Doe in a list of John Doe's in my life.  They all just wanted one thing -- what that lower head demands from them.  When they've had that, even after several times of passionate ones, you're gone, used and forgotten.  You're there for their game of catch.  some will take you for a trophy, some for a collection, some would even dare think they actually love you.  Imagine that -- a man would love you or say he did, but when you look at the whole picture, he'd be married or otherwise committed just the same.

"But when you look at my list of John Doe's, you'd see I made a collection too.  It's a sad trail of naivette, foolishness and downright stupidity.  That's what I want to put in my book.  I want women all over to to know that the ideal man is a myth, Prince Charming is a fairy tale and the knight in shining armor is a legend.  As sure as I am talking to you, I am a testament of how men use women.  women who feel 'valued' are in a delusion mainly spun by the man who knows how to create that illusion.

"Remember, my dear, that long, lingering kiss is only a prelude to the pain of being tossed like some old dirty rag.  and that's exactly how you'll feel after it all -- old, dirty and used."

Kelly's mind raced.  This lady is so hung up!  How many men are we talking about here?  For her to be with many men would a testament too to her own "over-availability" to be used by them anyhow.

"I know what you're thinking,"  the lady continued, "you think I'm just letting out steam because my heart has been broken too much too often."

Kelly could only give a faint smile.  Bull's eye.

The lady chuckled, "I don't have a long list of lovers.  I've had relationships that lasted between one night and several years, mind you.  It's a mix.  Aside from me being their common denominator, another common denominator is that they all left me, one way or the other.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Star Trek 2009

Rating:★★★★★
Category:Movies
Genre: Science Fiction & Fantasy
Talk about a system reboot.

My hubby has always hated time travel because of the paradoxes that creates, but who could fault this breath of life into the Star Trek franchise? JJ Abrams gave Star Trek a new lease on life-- and a darn good tribute to the First Couple of the franchise, Gene and Majel Roddenberry.

What didn't I like? Some scenes were a bit dizzying to watch -- granted, I did watch it at iMax, but still I don't like getting motion sickness. My real pet peeve is their characterization of Uhura. Ok, she is feisty and determined. I get that and applaud it, but need she be so touchy-feely? And to a Vulcan at that? I get the logic of Uhura pairing up with a Vulcan but the emo stuff is well... not very consistent with that whole set-up.

Hmmm... I wonder if T-Pring survived...

=)K

Summer... bummer...

My summer classes came and went so fast.  Now, I'm wanting more!

My prof said I got a 94 for my Pharma class this summer.  Too bad it's not a credit course.  I sure could use that A for my GPA.  And my hard work paid off.  I used five books to study for that class.  I hope my prof enjoyed teaching me for all his efforts in that class.

Whenever I got home from class after studying a particular drug classification, i would be assessing the hubby for symptoms and side-effects.  It was a good practice and review for me. 

Turns out the resident hypertensive was prescribed a calcium-channel blocker (amlodipine) and a beta-blocker (atenolol) plus a myocardial "relaxant" -- i am not sure how to categorize Trimetazidine since it's a new prototype drug against angina and hypertension.

My research indicates that it acts on the myocardium and lessens its workload, especially on the left ventricle.  My hubby has a slight left ventricular hypertrophy

Now, it's just a lull, a boring tedious lull.

So I am doing some stuff at home.  The pesky termites are getting the brunt of my wrath.  The clothes are getting sorted.  Parts pf the house are getting some pretty thorough cleaning.  Books are getting read. 

I'm done with 3 Earthsea books.  I've gone through the Vampire stories by Angela Knight -- whew, talk about really smoldering hot stuff!  I want to take a peak into my books for next sem but they haven't arrived yet.

On the downside, rakets for the summer have not paid up till now.  It's enrollment season, people!!!  And when my baby took the entrance test into a new school near the house, her brain was still on vacation.  Her performance was bad although she still passed.

On the upside... well, the Pharma grade was the upside.  Everything else is still pretty much status quo.  A possible upside is my dad's birthday gift for me -- if it happens.  I'm praying it happens!

Ala lang...
=)K

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Been a long time...

it has been quite a while since I last entered a blog here.  I have been trying to keep things light on my page... maybe that's why hardly anyone comes here.

anyway...

what has been happening to me... lemme see...

there isn't much i would want to broadcast to the world right now except that BEING ANGRY CAN SO DRAINING!

there... it's out.  there was an issue in school and some people's mistakes ended up being paid for by the entire class.  the worse part is that people are angry at the one who reported the incident.  talk about misled!  i say, be angry at the perpetrators not the rat.

"rat"... whatta word!  no one wants to be reported about, that much is true.  still, when there is something wrong, something needs to be done about it.  i guess what people really wanted was this to be contained and not blow up like Nagasaki in 1945.  now, we are all burned and scarred. so maybe the reporting needed a little bit more thought...

i bet some people suspect me.  now, that is funny.  me, a rat?  my daughter would rather have me as a hamster, thank you very much.

in any case, like many in my class who work hard, i was furious... so furious I had to cry.  i'm not one to go on a shouting spree or break things.  while i can write, i tend to be guarded in my writings.  (obvious ba?)  i keep anger bottled up inside.  so when it was announced thatb a full-scale investigation was to happen, i just burst. 

there is so much at stake here for me.  it isn't just one subject.  if my benefctors suspect yet another foul play in my education, the rug i am comfortably sitting on right now will be pulled quite unceremoniously from under me. if that isn't enough for me to cry about, i don't know what is.

it is a bit funny though... i'm a crier.  i cry a lot.  i cry at commercials even.  but it seems that people from school never really saw that.  they just know Ate Ginnie, the outspoken one with an attention span that can live through hours of Chem and be nice at Psych.

surprise.  surprise, huh? 

well, the anger has subsided.  the scars remain.  i just hope i do well on Friday.

=)K

Sunday, February 01, 2009

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Rating:★★★★★
Category:Movies
Genre: Drama
Just when I thought Brad Pitt has given up being a babe onscreen (especially after his recent movies like Burn After Reading and the Oceans Trilogy), he redeems himself again and climbs up on that pedestal I put him on after I saw Legends of the Fall and A River Runs Through It.

As the curious Benjamin Button, Brad was touching and evocative. Of course, the inimitable Ms. Cate Blanchett surpassed Mr. Pitt in performance. She was nothing short of superb. It totally helps that the story is stirring and well-developed.

Kudos to the makers of this movie. I hope they bag those golden trophies next month.

=)K

Partying with Mixmerize




former officemate Micmac invited us to crash a gig near my house. I was the designated driver-cum-photog so I just had fun clicking away while my friends were busy enjoying the colorful booze.

I don't know what they're called but they're nice to look at. My friends thouroughly enjoyed themselves, so I guess the drinkswere pretty good.

And I'm told their rates are pretty good too... Hmmm... maybe I should drink next time...

=)K