it has been quite a while since I last entered a blog here. I have been trying to keep things light on my page... maybe that's why hardly anyone comes here.
anyway...
what has been happening to me... lemme see...
there isn't much i would want to broadcast to the world right now except that BEING ANGRY CAN SO DRAINING!
there... it's out. there was an issue in school and some people's mistakes ended up being paid for by the entire class. the worse part is that people are angry at the one who reported the incident. talk about misled! i say, be angry at the perpetrators not the rat.
"rat"... whatta word! no one wants to be reported about, that much is true. still, when there is something wrong, something needs to be done about it. i guess what people really wanted was this to be contained and not blow up like Nagasaki in 1945. now, we are all burned and scarred. so maybe the reporting needed a little bit more thought...
i bet some people suspect me. now, that is funny. me, a rat? my daughter would rather have me as a hamster, thank you very much.
in any case, like many in my class who work hard, i was furious... so furious I had to cry. i'm not one to go on a shouting spree or break things. while i can write, i tend to be guarded in my writings. (obvious ba?) i keep anger bottled up inside. so when it was announced thatb a full-scale investigation was to happen, i just burst.
there is so much at stake here for me. it isn't just one subject. if my benefctors suspect yet another foul play in my education, the rug i am comfortably sitting on right now will be pulled quite unceremoniously from under me. if that isn't enough for me to cry about, i don't know what is.
it is a bit funny though... i'm a crier. i cry a lot. i cry at commercials even. but it seems that people from school never really saw that. they just know Ate Ginnie, the outspoken one with an attention span that can live through hours of Chem and be nice at Psych.
surprise. surprise, huh?
well, the anger has subsided. the scars remain. i just hope i do well on Friday.
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We should have been celebrating right now....
ReplyDeleteI really wished it was over already coz i studied really hard on that subject..
and you know how much i needed to pass this ate ginnie.
Also, it sucks that others have to misinterpret why you cried the last time.
But,, we have to move on. We just have to do well on FRIDAY!
suspect you? of course not! you're a person that would make everything as much as possible distant from "conflict" or far from worst... and i'm glad you're that kind of person... i just hope i do well in the exam.. kinda weird feeling,, that we're supposed to be done with this one... hate it.. haha but kat is right.. cheer up!
ReplyDeleteoh you wouldn't believe it! i have proof, but I won't go into that. as far as i know, it's in the past. at least now i know who would think the worst of me even without evidence.
ReplyDeletethanks for the morale boosters, although i know some others who need the morale boosting right now.
psy na lang...
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ginnie.ü we passed! Yey! Lets go celebrate!ü
ReplyDeleteouting... outing... outing...
ReplyDelete=)K