Kimi starts with a news chool this year. She isn't very excited about it but she has trusted us to move her studies. Her acceptance of something this big for her and her unwavering trust at our judgement on her behalf simply boggles me. It's a amazing to see that when I have found it hard to simply place my trust on anyone.
And she has grown! Almost five feet now. I'm expecting her to grow taller than me. She saw my wedding shoes the other day and she said she would love to have it someday. I said she might be able to wear it on her gradeschool graduation -- yes, that soon. And she is starting to have breasts...
Oh dear, she is getting into that scary part for parents! Right now, she is still innocent and trusting. On one hand, I am scared about what the world will do to her. On the other hand, I want her to learn her lessons. I good bargain is for her to learn her lessons in the not-so-hard way. Oh, if only it were possible to rig her life to be like that...
In any case, the scary part hasn't really come yet. Her exposure to the bad elements have been filtered thus far by her parents and school. I hope the new school will be good to her. I hope she blossoms in this new environment.
I hope. I pray, just as I've always prayed since I found out I was pregnant with her -- Dear God, please don't let me screw up her life.
Oh well... so life goes on.
=)K
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Monday, June 08, 2009
Storms Signals
Storm Signal #1:
Don't you just hate it when people don't trust the decisions you've made? Worse, they think the worst of it and tell you you're harsh and unkind... and it's your own mom.
Storm Signal #2:
Don't you just hate it when other people give away your things? Imagine this: my daughter left a bag containing her swimming effects in school last March. She didn't tell me until April so we sent someone over to get it... several times. Each time, we get feedback like "there's no one with a key to open the lost and found cabinet" or "the people with keys are too busy to open the firggin cabinet..." We go there today to get the bag since it's the first day of classes and the nuns have cleared the cabinet and gave the contents to charity... and they never contacted us about it either... Those Sisters of St. Paul need to learn some manners...
Storm Signal #3:
I have no possible scholarship for my 4th year of studies... It's not for two years, but it makes me wonder about being in the program... Will I be able to finish?
Storm Signal #4:
only 2 of 9 got their visas in batch 1... so far...
Storm Signal #5:
house help isn't really househelp and will leave on the first day of classes. oh, and she left the stove turned on with no flame and the gas tank on too the other night...
gasp... breathe... gasp... breathe... will need emergency equipment soon.
a deluge, suffice it to say. i'm letting the tsunami tide me over, debris and all, since there is nothing i can do about it, basically. thank god for little girls with a ready hug and kiss for one distressed mama.
=)K
Don't you just hate it when people don't trust the decisions you've made? Worse, they think the worst of it and tell you you're harsh and unkind... and it's your own mom.
Storm Signal #2:
Don't you just hate it when other people give away your things? Imagine this: my daughter left a bag containing her swimming effects in school last March. She didn't tell me until April so we sent someone over to get it... several times. Each time, we get feedback like "there's no one with a key to open the lost and found cabinet" or "the people with keys are too busy to open the firggin cabinet..." We go there today to get the bag since it's the first day of classes and the nuns have cleared the cabinet and gave the contents to charity... and they never contacted us about it either... Those Sisters of St. Paul need to learn some manners...
Storm Signal #3:
I have no possible scholarship for my 4th year of studies... It's not for two years, but it makes me wonder about being in the program... Will I be able to finish?
Storm Signal #4:
only 2 of 9 got their visas in batch 1... so far...
Storm Signal #5:
house help isn't really househelp and will leave on the first day of classes. oh, and she left the stove turned on with no flame and the gas tank on too the other night...
gasp... breathe... gasp... breathe... will need emergency equipment soon.
a deluge, suffice it to say. i'm letting the tsunami tide me over, debris and all, since there is nothing i can do about it, basically. thank god for little girls with a ready hug and kiss for one distressed mama.
=)K
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